Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Support letter for RUSSIA!!!

Greetings from the Lord’s Servant,

I am pleased to introduce you to my newest endeavor, “FUSION.” Fusion is more than just a missions program; it’s a life-changing process which is challenging me in every way… physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. It is a place where discipline and full abandonment to self is called forth. Here, I have realized that as a follower of Christ, I am not called to comfort or success but to obedience. It is my duty to proclaim Christ to the nations and spread His love and joy to anyone placed in my path. The first semester is spent training at Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary located in Kansas City, Missouri. This training includes two weeks of Ground School, hands-on/interactive training events and classes that prepare me to go overseas. The second part of this experience continues overseas after Christmas break. My team will be on mission in Far East Asia, Russia, specifically Siberia!

My team consists of three other girls besides myself; Marissa, Dricka, and Sadie. We will be living in Russia from January to May in a multi-story apartment near a large city. The region is beautiful in landscape, however, the temperature can get as low as -50F!!! English language is not widely used or known in this area. Learning Russian is one of my main priorities right now and it is not easy! Some of the things we will be doing in Russia include mass Gospel sowing, Jesus film showings, English clubs, storying, True Love Waits seminars, street witnessing, extreme evangelism trips, prayer walking, training the local youth in evangelism/witnessing, meeting human needs, building relationships with university students, and assisting in orphan ministries. I pray that God will also allow me to use my love of dance as a way to minister the gospel of our Lord Jesus as well.

As you can guess, I am in need of financial support to be able to minister in this way. I have to raise a total of $4500 by November 1st. I ask that if the Lord prompts even the smallest amount on your heart to give, do it! It will be greatly appreciated. I cannot do this without YOUR help. In order to receive a tax deduction, I am placing myself under the accountability of my home church, First Baptist Liberal, Kansas. Checks are to be made out to First Baptist Church with Kimberly Robinson Fusion Missions Fund in the memo. Please send your financial gift to First Baptist Church 204 N. Sherman Ave Liberal, KS 67901.

Being a member of my prayer team is very important to me and my family. Please keep our team in your prayers. Some specific things to pray for are: physical health, unity within the team and the other missionaries we will work beside, financial needs to be met, quick and easy comprehension of the Russian language and culture, spiritual preparedness, passion and deep love for His Word and the lost that are in need of a Savior. Pray for the Holy Spirit to begin working on the hearts of the people we will be serving and come into contact with in Russia. Pray for openness and divine

appointments with the Russian people that God will do a great work in and through us and that no matter what happens, God will receive all honor and glory in all that we say and do.

Thank you so much for your support. I know that many of you have supported me for several years as God has grown me to this place in my personal walk with Him. It is with much appreciation and awe for your love for me that I very humbly say……thank you….for allowing God to use you to be a vessel of blessing to me. May God pour His love and blessing upon you and your family. If you are interested in learning more about Fusion, please visit the website at . I would love for you to stay connected through my blog, to see what God is doing in Russia!

His glory is my reward,

Kimberly Robinson

Monday, September 24, 2012

His Glory is My Reward

August 4-17- Ground school –die well by living well .
“If anyone wants to come with Me, he must deny himself, take up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life because of Me will find it.” Matthew 16:24-25
DAY 1-
 Whoa. Intensity. In shock. Really have no idea what I am doing here but I’m trying to see your purpose God.
After a night of what felt like being issued into the military which included receiving gear, sitting in a hallway crisscross applesauce, knife hands on knees studying a handbook for three hours, and receiving commands; I awoke to the screeching sounds of people screaming and banging pots & pans. Working through my confusion and frustration I got dressed and was ordered to line up in formation outside at the crack of dawn. We spent the day learning to march. Later we had PT (physical training) in which I ran two miles for the first time in months. I felt like crap and finished on the verge of puking. However something important I learned was rather than focusing on my problems and obstacles I should start looking at those around me to see how I could encourage them.
For lunch I had to get over my flesh and try to keep down sardines, Fritos, and condensed milk. Not to mention the bland uncooked oatmeal we had for breakfast.  Along with putting away my displeasure, I also was faced with the realization that sometimes in other countries we will be given what seems “disgusting or the worst” but really in that culture it’s the best they have to offer. So learning to accept whatever is put in front of you is necessary to keep a good witness and testimony.
Tonight we were given responsibility of gidons (flags). Each night we were expected to come up with a rotation schedule for guard duty. At our posts we were responsible of guarding the flag, having to stay alert and aware so that no prowlers would steal our gidon. And let me tell you they would come out of nowhere trying to steal our precious flags. This resulted in sleep deprivation; you can imagine the hallucination that took place and the difficulty it was to keep our eyes open. The determination to stay awake was great because the punishment for losing a gidon was to be “smoked” with pushups and flutter kicks the next morning. This lesson of responsibility prepares us to be awake and aware of our surroundings whether we feel like it or not. We should always be on guard and ready to give an account, looking after not only ourselves but our brothers and sisters around us.
“Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 2:3-5
I want to understand fully what it means and how to live by “His glory is my reward”. Knowing and comprehending that as a follower of Christ it shouldn’t matter that I get a reward or blessing here on earth, even in heaven. I should be completely satisfied in knowing because God is being glorified in my life, THAT is my highest reward and honor I could ever receive. Not only for what He did but for who He is.  Lord please give me strength.
It’s only been the first day and its felt like a YEAR!
DAY 2- Honestly, God, I have no idea how the heck I am going to make it through this. I’m only on day two and I am already exhausted. I need your patience and endurance. May your strength be shown through my weakness. I can only do this with your help, I already have nothing left to give. Please provide in the way you only know how. I pray that you would help me to continue giving 100%.
Today physical training was at 5:30am and we did this workout called insanity after army crawling uphill. Embrace the suck. Struggling to stay awake during our teachings in the classroom we tried taking notes on Fusion’s foundation. My roommate was hilarious because she kept dozing off and would end up scribbling nonsense in her notebook which later on brought laughter.
Teambuilding exercise. Blind folded we were led to complete a task to build something with the items being given. Lesson learned: communication and paying attention to detail is important and key.
Instead of black cargo pants, army boots, tan t-shirt, boonie (hat), and camelback (backpack); we got to wear normal clothes! Yay! Making our way along the streets of Kansas city evangelizing and praying, we ended up talking to two girls who were artists and a guy in a wheelchair. We also had an encounter with a guy who said to be a believer but had a lot of opinions about theology and admitted to not praying in a while. I feel like God used this time to help me work on talking with others being interested in them and open to the leading of the Holy Spirit.
Listening to music on the way home was precious and beauty to my ears. And during guard duty God provided me with encouragement. IT IS WORTH IT. DON’T GIVE UP. YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES YOU STRENGTH. Philippians 4:13
DAY 3-
Physical training. Indian run and suicides. Repelling off a cliff! AH! I was so nervous. Ate dinner with our hands …yum. Hiking exercise. Through this I learned that when we see something that should be done or needs to be done or changed we step up and take initiative to do it. Also when life it sucks, we embrace the suck and look to others to see what we can do to pray for or encourage them in. There is always someone with a bigger problem and I believe God has given me a compassionate spirit for certain people. 
Lord Jesus I am ultimately surprised that I have gotten to day 3 without breaking down and crying. I can definitely say that being sleep deprived is the hardest thing for me because I can’t focus. At the end of this process I can say that it is the hardest thing I have ever done in my whole life. Lord I pray for physical healing and restoration in everyone’s bodies. I know we are all so sore and weak. Please begin to strengthen and renew our muscles. Take away exhaustion and anything that is getting in the way or holding us back from fully experiencing you God. And I know it’s not about feeling but it’s been so hard because I don’t feel you in this. Please show your face to me. I want more of you. All of you. It’s also hard without getting physical affection and having people yelling at me. I feel somewhat empty and alone. Challenge me to break that selfishness and reach out to comfort others around me. I ask you to be my comfort, God, so that I am completely satisfied. Give me your eyes and ears. Help me to see with your perspective and mindset. I want to be more like you Jesus. Crucifying my flesh, like Paul, counting everything a loss for the sake of Christ. Putting down what I desire and prefer, surrendering to what God says. Obedience=repentance. 
“I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6
I will NOT QUIT. He will finish His work in me.
“I will rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and help of the Spirit of Jesus Christ this will turn out for my deliverance, as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death. For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.” Philippians 1:18-21
I want to be as passionate as Paul was for the gospel. Honoring God in whatever I do whether life or death. 
“I may hear of you that you are standing firm in one spirit, with one mind striving side by side for the faith of the gospel.” Philippians 1:27
I pray that we would bond together in unity. Working as a team of like mind to accomplish your will God.
“For the sake of Christ you should not only believe in Him but also suffer for His sake.” Philippians 1:29
We need to practice what we believe no matter the cost. Am I willing to sacrifice myself for the cause of Christ and for the sake of the gospel?
Being satisfied in the Lord brings Him most glory.
Lord, give me strength to be obedient, submissive and faithful to persevere to the end. Take away all distraction. Help me to push through and dig deeper.
DAY 4-
Today I was reminded that HELL is REAL. It is a place of utter darkness, an absence of light, God’s presence. Light even if it is small outweighs the darkness. When there is light present, the darkness must bow. We are not the light. The only way we have light is because Jesus lives inside of us.
 I am here because there are people DYING in this world and God has asked me to step up to the plate, lay aside my selfishness and comfort in order for others to hear about Christ and be saved from the pit of hell.  I do not deserve to be used. My final destination should be hell. That is what I deserve yet the gift of salvation was given so freely and willingly. How I take that for granted. Wow. You are so good, gracious, and merciful my Jesus.
DAY 5-
The Fusion process is losing innocence while maintaining godliness to gain knowledge and experience. It is learning how to become a godly adult in the midst of a self-centered world.
 8 mile hike=swollen hands and sore feet. Thank you, God, for the delicious breakfast of pancakes and bacon. Then got to dress like a girl and go downtown to eat African food and knock on doors. During the outreach my team got to talk with an Iraqi family that was sitting in their backyard. The father was very open and even invited us in to eat figs and see his garden and collection of pigeons. It was really cool talking with him and showing them the love of Christ.
DAY 6-
PT with rocks. Ahhh.
Packed for a weekend away! Drove for a few hours and got to a park where we hung out and played football for a while. Then we slept at a church and got to have some chill timeJ
DAY 7-
“Fusion: Where boys become men and so do the girls.” L
CLIFF JUMPING!!! My heart was pounding but I jumped twice and it was fun! 
My devotional today was from the utmost for His highest… “God places His Saints where they will bring Him the most glory and we are totally incapable of judging where that may be.”
It’s hard for me sometimes when I don’t feel like God is using me, but God doesn’t call us to where we will be of greatest USE. He calls us to where we can bring HIM the most GLORY! Whoa. His glory IS my reward.
I want to be so caught up in my Jesus that when others meet me they can’t help but notice Jesus too.
Savior I come, I quiet my soul. Remember redemptions hill where your blood was spilled for my ransom. Lead me to the cross where your love poured out. Bring me to my knees Lord I lay me down. Rid me of myself, I belong to you. Lead me, lead me to the cross.
“Prayer is a conservation of time. Instead of thinking of everything you have to do, spend time praying for strength so that God may give you what you need to accomplish things.” –Utmost for His Highest
Bless the Lord, Oh my soul, ohhh my soul. Worship His Holy Name. Sing like never before, oh my soul. Worship Your Holy Name. Psalms 103
DAY 8-
Set up camp to live outside for the rest of the week. Collected firewood, pitched tents, dug holes for latrines and fire pits, and made shower huts. Cooked all of our meals over the fire.
I can still be here and waste my time. Am I dedicating and living for God like today could be my last? We need to FIGHT for each other’s sanctification and holiness.
“You will find yourself at your wits end but at the beginning of God’s wisdom! Don’t panic when you get to this place. Stand true to God and He will bring you out His truth in a way that will make your life an expression of worship. Make determination to trust God.” –Utmost for His Highest
There is a time that must come when we are focused with responsibility and questions that no one can answer but ourselves. The time must come when our leaders and guides will leave is and we must step up and handle things alone. This is when we remember and put into practice everything we’ve learned.
Lord give me your wisdom that I might be steadfast and true, making godly decisions. I want my life to be an expression of worship to you my Jesus. Devoted completely and only to you letting nothing and no one stand in the way or be a distraction. I want to be close to you and put you first in my life. I long and desire to know you more. I ask that you continue to grow and teach me more and more. Thank you for your love Oh Lord and for how you take care of me.
Wow. God do I really have confidence in you to trust you even in the midst of crisis or hard circumstances? “We come to our wits end showing that we don’t have even the slightest amount of confidence in Him or His sovereign control of the world. If we have learned to worship God and place our trust in Him, crisis will reveal that we can go to the point of breaking, yet without breaking our confidence in Him. Sanctification will be expressed in our lives as a peaceful resting in God, which means total oneness with Him. And this oneness will make us not only blameless in His sight but a profound joy to Him.” –Utmost for His Highest
Jesus I want to be sanctified and holy. “Create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Cast me not from your presence and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit. For you do not delight in sacrifice or I would give it. You will not be pleased with a burnt offering. The sacrifice of God are a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart, Oh God, you will not despise.” Psalms 52:10-12 &16-17
God break my heart for what breaks yours. May I be poured out as a drink offering so that I am nothing and you are my everything. Make me whole and new. More like you in all I do. Not holding back or hoping for the future but taking in what you are showing and revealing to me now. Giving my focus completely to you. Seeking your face and searching out your truths to fill me with strength, hope and grace.
DAY 9-
Worked all day with campus ops to help make the campus look presentable and nice. Late night log PT. Interesting.
DAY 10-
Jogged a 5K. GPS training. Map training. Received gloch knives. Had an interesting dinner.
DAY 11- Don’t quite remember anything after this day everything started to blend together. We were put onto our teams and told our locations where we are ministering overseas. We then went through a series of events with our team called the exodus. It was very hard and challenging physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. We were running on little energy, food, and no sleep. During this time the only person we could rely on was God for our strength and that is the only way we made it through.
After it all, we were given a celebratory meal . Hot shower and bed never felt so good and refreshingJ
To say the least Ground school was the hardest thing I’ve done yet it has been the most accomplishing. I’ve grown so much through it and it taught me so many things.
As a follower of Christ: I am called not to comfort or success but to obedience.  Consequently my life is to be defined not by what I do but by who I am. Henceforth: I will proclaim His name without fear, follow Him without regret, and serve Him without compromise. Thus: to obey is my objective, to suffer is expected, His glory is my reward. Therefore: to Christ alone be all power, all honor, and all glory that the world may know. Amen.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

The Fight for Holiness

There is a voice calling out for true sanctification
It is a standard of devotion so rich and deep
A set apartness from the norm, familiar and easy
A righteousness which exudes humility, grace, serenity and love
 A shedding of flesh and selfish desires
It is becoming drenched in the beauty of oneness with the Father
It is complete satisfaction and a thirst for purity that is unexplainable  
But the fight is not just individual; the call is for sisters and brothers as well
 It is a fight that builds up and sharpens the body of Christ
A selflessness that puts another before oneself
Though temptations arise; with gritted teeth and feet planted firmly in the ground
Resistance is attainable because the power of Christ within
When the heart and flesh fail, strength comes from He that overcame the grave
There is a voice still calling out for true sanctification
Waiting to see who will fight to live the holy life as children of the Most High God
 Yet who will answer?

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Hello family, friends, and supporters…
 For the past month God blessed me with the opportunity to go with Arrows International Dance Ministry Team to London, England! I arrived back in the USA on Monday, July 23. I am so thankful and continually amazed that God chooses to use me for His glory. My heart is overflowing with gratefulness for people like you who love and support me. Without you believing in me, I wouldn’t have been able to fulfill the calling God placed on my heart this summer. Thank you so much for giving and praying.
Throughout my time in London, we danced and ministered at several conferences, churches, and schools.  I loved meeting the children and listening to them talk! One of my favorite experiences was dancing at a conference called Project Dance. We performed at The Scoop amphitheater located by the Tower of London. Throughout the day, it rained sporadically so when we could not dance on the slippery stage, our team ended up worshipping in the rain. It was really amazing getting to spread God’s presence and joy with a diverse and vast amount of people stopping to watch. At times, the experience seemed surreal as I prayed and danced for the crowds of people who needed to know the saving grace of our Lord Jesus.  Even though we didn’t get the chance to share the gospel specifically with each person, I know that seeds were planted in the hearts of many and the Holy Spirit was at work to “draw all men to God.”   
Another of my most memorable experiences was dancing at the market place in Poplar which was predominantly a Muslim community. While waiting for our clothes at the launderette, God led our team to perform some of our dance pieces in the square using a laptop and small speakers. Starting off, we could barely hear the music but after a while people started to notice and stopped to watch. After a short while, a gentleman that worked at one of the booths came over and offered the use of his speakers. Blasting Jesus music, we danced for about an hour and talked to some of the people standing by. They were really interested about the motive and inspiration for our dancing. The next day, we went back to visit and shop while connecting with more people in the area. The third day, we returned to perform in the square again. By then, people knew who we were and we were able to share the gospel of Jesus Christ. Bringing smiles and life to the people in this community was one of the highlights of my trip. Knowing that I was used to be His vessel of inspiration and light in a dark place was a blessing.
I think the greatest thing God taught me on this trip was how to have JOY in the midst of any circumstance. He definitely showed that He wanted my focus and attention completely on Him. Before leaving for London, I prayed specifically for divine appointments which I thought was for me to pour into others. I did not expect that I would be the one receiving ministry and encouragement. Instead, God, in His faithfulness, put certain people in my life to challenge, counsel, relate, and encourage me to keep following the Lord whole heartedly. The memories and lessons that God gave me on this trip have  solidified and strengthened the call on my life to be His hands and feet, to love with His abandon, and to always be willing to be available to go wherever He asks me to go. 
 Thank you again for pouring your love and support into my life.  May God bless you abundantly.
Kimberly Robinson   

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

The sweetness of Your Presence

For a moment I feel like I am on top of a mountain breathing in Your love and goodness.
Looking upon all You have done in my life; all that we've walked through and all that is yet to come.
I see a glimpse of the future. Joy, peace, and hope overwhelms my soul.
Your radiant love seeps into my skin and brings a smile to my face.
I am utterly content with who You are and that You love me with such intensity.
Gratitude and thankfulness is all that I can offer.
You have blessed me over and abundantly.
The sweetness of your Presence floods my life and overjoys my heart.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Dream BIG!

                So we do not focus on what is seen, but on what is unseen; for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:18) Everyone says to dream BIG, but who actually dreams BIG and follows through to live out their BIG dream?  I not only want to be a dreamer of the things God has placed in my heart, but furthermore a doer; one who acts and lives out those dreams. I have learned throughout the years that seeking the unseen is a tough road to travel, but it is the most filling, the most joyous, the most lasting, and the most REAL. Through that realness, I have found God. Though many other people have their own ideas and plans in mind, they seek after the things that are temporary and worldly, but I have chosen to put my trust and hope in the Lord, ultimately giving Him my dreams and desires.
            This choice has totally changed my perspective on life because, as I see it, a dream is an aspiration or goal that comes from a genuine relationship with Christ. As a follower of Christ, I have come to realize that my dream is not about me. Instead, it is about what God does through me and how my specific role is important and vital for glorifying Him and furthering His kingdom. Throughout the rest of this writing, you will see a glimpse of how God laid the foundation for my dreams, how He has built on that foundation, and how He is beginning to shape it into a beautiful masterpiece.
My story begins even before I knew what my dreams were. Venturing back to my childhood, I see where God was at work preparing me for great things. Ever since I was a little girl, my parents have helped and encouraged me to find the God-given dreams placed deep inside. They have been an incredible godly influence and example in my life. Being born into a pastor’s family, I have learned a lot about servanthood and leadership. The many lessons were learned in daily tasks such as staying up late at the church working on projects the night before an outreach, being the first ones to an event and the last ones to leave, setting up and cleaning up, plus everything in between; listening to and interacting with people, treating them respectfully, and being caring and kind even when you do not necessarily feel like it. True ministry is not always being the one up front leading; instead it is about having a humble spirit. Being willing to do the nitty gritty work, like my weekly duty of setting up chairs for worship service, kept me from thinking too highly of myself.
            I believe that God placed me in a family focused on ministry because He not only wanted me to grow and learn in leadership and servanthood, but also to test my perseverance. Ministry is not easy, it is time consuming and energy draining. There have been trials and hardship, persecution and failure, but through it all, God has been constant and faithful. “We also rejoice in our afflictions, because we know that affliction produces endurance, endurance produces proven character, and proven character produces hope.” (Romans 5:3-4)  
            Another way God began to plant dreams into my heart was by my love of choreography and directing plays. Instead of always playing house or pioneers with my sisters and friends I would want to make up dances and perform them. Evidently, the Lord gave me a creative and artistic mind for a purpose, which leads to the small vision I was given at the age of twelve. I have since realized that this is just one piece of the tremendous plan He has for my life. Dance used to be an activity I did for myself, but in growing and learning more about the talents and gifts God gives each of us, I discovered the true and divine side of dance which is found in worshipping and honoring my Savior. I believe that each of God’s children has a spiritual gift and mine is dance!  Although I had been in dance classes since I was four years old, I never really considered dancing my passion. However, the Lord was at work cultivating my heart to realize, use, and teach the art form of dance as a type of worship. Sondancers Ministry was birthed from a young creative mind, my supportive parents, and most importantly God who laid the dream on my heart in the first place. Being director and teacher of Sondancers Ministry at age twelve was a huge step out of my comfort zone of shyness and fear. I began by teaching two basic ballet and creative movement classes with sixteen students which was held at my church. Through this venture, I began earning money, but my purpose was to extend the joy of dancing and the love of Jesus to others. “Do not look down on those who are young, instead set an example to the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity.” (1Timothy 4:12)
Little did I know that my small job at the age of twelve would explode and grow to one hundred students when I was eighteen years old! I look back now and see how the Lord took my willingness and obedience in something small and blessed it because of my faithfulness. Throughout the six years leading this ministry, the Lord grew me in many ways and taught me countless lessons. One of the greatest things I learned was responsibility. I had to take care of all the money, promotion, organization, communication, costuming, and teaching on my own. God was also was preparing and urging me to overcome my fear by my obedience to speak and pray in front of people at recitals and by interacting with parents.
Surprisingly, with much diligence, the Lord started opening doors of opportunity for my Dance 4:1 Ministry Team to perform at outreaches, girls’ retreats, nursing homes, and block parties. The reason I started Dance 4:1 Ministry Team was to be able to spread hope, encouragement, and strength to others who need to know that Jesus loves and cares for them. Another reason was to challenge and encourage young dancers who have a passion to learn more and whose heart is tuned in with God. “You will be able to move mountains if you can move people, and you can move people if you know how to touch their hearts. When your heart is tuned to God’s song, He will put you in the right place at the right time to use you for His glory.” (The Divine Dance, 40-41)
            “All the truths you have learned on your journey so far will serve as your weapons and armor.” (The Dream Giver) God brings us through specific experiences and challenges to build our character, make us a stronger person, and to draw us closer to Himself. The more I think about it, the more I realize it is not the destination that is the dream, but the journey that is the dream. After all, no one really arrives at the finishing mark and no one’s dream ever dies because the Big Need is always there. So Dream BIG and be expectant of what God will do !!!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Sort Me Out

Thoughts a twirling
Emotions swirling
So much on my mind
Can’t contain the anxiety inside
My heart drowns in bitter sweetness
Confusion, doubt, sadness, pain
Excitement, joy, love, disdain
So much to carry
Too hard to handle
In the middle of this mess
Lord, sort me out
That I might be most effective
And love so deeply
No time or person taken for granted
Give me your perspective and peace
To finish strong and stay on beat